Well, gosh, thank you Shanti Mama for the Honest Scrap Award:)!
1. Choose a minimum of 7 blogs you find brilliant in content or design.
I am pretty sure the blogs I follow have already been awarded this Honest Scrap award, so I won't re-award them! You know who you are -- all of you brilliant and your stories beautiful.
2. Show the 7 winners’ names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they have won the Honest Scrap award.
See 1. above
3. List at least 10 honest things about yourself. Here goes, off the top of my head, and in no particular order...
1. Phil Collins is my favorite music artist of all time. I really "get" him and his songs just speak to me.
2. My biggest regret in life (and I have quite a few, mostly associated with the time I spent with B.W. before and after his birth) is not bringing our own camera to the hospital when B.W. was born. We were heartbroken and out of sorts (obviously an understatement), trying to pack a bag. The hospital had reassured us that they would take pictures for us -- which they did, we saw the pictures. Unfortunately, those precious photos were lost forever before they were printed or uploaded. The hospital camera was even sent to an professional lab to retrieve the deleted photos. They were somehow corrupted. We have NO pictures of our firstborn. It was devastating. It IS devastating. I mourn the loss of those photos everyday - literally everyday I think about them. We attempt to piece together his image in our brains, quite often actually, but we can't seem to describe his chin to each other. I hate that.
3. I loathe lazy people, but I've learned to adapt to them. (Certainly can't avoid them in this life!)
4. I often wish I had pursued dance as a career, and 2 things prevented me from actually doing it: 1) my parents urging that it would be too difficult and would not pay the bills and 2) my genuine fear of failure. In all reality though, I wouldn't have my boys in this scenario and I wouldn't trade them for anything.
5. I majored in actuarial science in college. What can I say - I love math. I know, what a geek!
6. I need a new hobby or activity. A new "thing" that's just about me. Help, anyone? Just kidding... I think I actually need to figure this one out on my own.
7. I worry about everything - losing another child, money, work, abused children, starvation in third world countries, the economy - you name it. I know many women wrestle with worry, but I often feel extraordinarily plagued by it.
8. Losing my son has taught me many lessons. One is that I faced the reality of having authentic vs. casual (and often superficial) relationships. Though I continue to have both types of relationships, I have chosen to weed out many of the casuals and am well aware of my two buckets. Honestly it was much easier when I didn't fully recognize the difference.
9. I am terrified to speak in front of groups, which is no doubt linked to my fear of failure (see 4. above)
10. I have known my husband for more than half of my life. We dated in high school, had a stint apart in college and were married a year after graduation. I couldn't have chosen a better partner for life.
